Leads to a dysfunctional life.
So they say.
Alien brain full of colours and sounds.
5D living in a 3D world.
Energies jump out at you.
You look and look trying to find some semblance of humanity.
They catch you staring.
You are hyper empathic so it hurts to be present to their noises,
Always cracked, a bit weird.
That crack is where the hurt gets in.
Your container is cracked.
Your body leaks pain.
It sits like a poison on your tongue.
It strikes out like a snake.
A bite is another way to communicate.
To bite them open so they leak their authenticity.
That crack is where the Love gets out.
The golden stuff that rises up the spine.
You know ?
That foundation on which relationships are built.
Your eyes look and look trying to know who they really are.
All the time, figuring out, exhausting!
Eventually you adapt so that they are comfortable and can be present to you.
Drip feeding yourself in pieces so they can tolerate your bright colours.
They couldn’t handle all of you.
You’re too much.
Their sameness and dullness would fade them out to distinction.
So you shift your shape to fit their shadow.
But your container is cracked.
You don’t understand yourself,
So How can You understand them?
Yet more human being than all their human doing.
Brain full of colours in a flat grey world.
An Open heart.
An Alien brain.
A Rainbow mind.
~ Kathy Barenskie
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