Author Archives: myinbetweenworld

Sitting by the river, watching the ripples growing bigger and expanding outwards. Eyes growing heavy until they close. No longer in my body. Feeling my energies growing and expanding out, spilling into the cold blackness of the icy waters. The vastness of my Being incorporating everything around me, until I merge into oneness with everythingContinue reading “Ever Decreasing Circles”

She could feel it watching her from amongst the crowd of mingling jostling people. Even with all the loudness and busyness and rushing about. She could still feel it’s eyes boring deep into her very soul. She did her best to make herself small, calling back her energies into her solar plexus. In this wayContinue reading “Spectre”

What is it like to have to be highly intuitive? Ooohhhh on so many levels it’s difficult. It changes on a daily basis. Some days better than others. Colours can have sounds and become textured. Other days the same colours remain flat. Sounds are also weird. One day I was out walking my dog andContinue reading “A Ghostly Intuition”

“I don’t know anything about being a person of colour.I’m a white woman.So white, my veins show blue up under my white skin.I don’t know anything about being seen as a dark cloud that stands out in a sky of white milky nothingness, treated like a dirty stain. I have an education, access to aContinue reading “Pasteurised White”

What’s it take to hold authentic in this world today? My daughter and I went to the shops. I met an acquaintance there, a woman who I knew had been actively suicidal a few years back. She was so unhappy with her life, her marriage, her lot as it were. That time I worked withContinue reading “Holding Authentic”

I’m not actually trying to be hurtful. If you are offended then look to what this is triggering in you. I make no apologies. There is no frontline. When you actually take the time to think for yourself about it, yes there are essential and key workers. These people have been fortunate enough to keepContinue reading “Silent Tsunami”

I could spend all day lost in the recesses of my mind. Thinking 🤔. Working things out, or trying too. Falling asleep, eating, reading, listening to beautiful music, creating my kind of Art, thinking 🤔, working things out, or just spend a day alone thinking, thinking, thinking…. Endless cycles of nothingness. Friends ask, “what doContinue reading “Being a Shapeshifter”

In Memoriam I’m remembering more of my past lifetimes. In my childhood they came in my Dreamtime. Now they are cemented in memory. There must be some kind of protection with each rebirth when we jump, fall or choose the next life, that we forget the previous. It’s a gift to me I feel. AContinue reading “In Memoriam”

These endless, nameless days of being locked down, locked out, locked in, they’re playing havoc with my unconscious mind. My dreams are coming to the surface, mingling with reality. Memories of a childhood, long since resolved in many a therapists uncomfortable chair, are beginning to haunt me again. Popping into my dusty mind like aContinue reading “The Creaking Floorboard”

How many times do we die in a lifetime? Osho said we die with every out breath. Think about that one. I like that. It means that every breath allows each of us an opportunity to begin again. Sometimes I meet people that I really admire. My Autistic nature leaves me somewhat naive at timesContinue reading “Death Again”

I see many wonderful things going on. The usual community heroes facing up to the covid-19 challenges and helping those deemed less fortunate.Fund raising, donations, delivering food parcels, etc etc..On a Thursday night I hear fireworks and hoorays and clapping for the NHS and the Careworkers. Granny’s making masks and companies turning production to producingContinue reading “Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff”

Oh my goodness! These days are strange. Every other day on social media there are posts about signs of ascension into a fifth dimensional world. The same people share these posts again and again. I would have hoped they would have made more progress by now.Reaching high into a consciousness without a grounding into theirContinue reading “Ascension Rescindment”

As a child I was always on the outside looking into other people’s realities, while being locked inside my own special world.My dreams would take me on adventures where Dreamtime blended with reality until I didn’t know what was what. I would see tall, glimmery white beautiful people in the trees and sunshine and watersContinue reading “Autism as my Superpower. Shamanism as my Healer.”

Wired differently.Disabled thinkingLeads to a dysfunctional life.So they say.Alien brain full of colours and sounds.5D living in a 3D world.Energies jump out at you.You look and look trying to find some semblance of humanity.They catch you staring.You are hyper empathic so it hurts to be present to their noises,their dullness.Always cracked, a bit weird.That crackContinue reading “Alien Brain”

Just so you know: The Executive Function is an ability we all have in our cognitive processes. It helps a person to know when and how to start or delay reactions to the environment, and to shift and sustain attention in order to prioritise the reactions.And …It is the ability to plan, organize and manageContinue reading “All Things Executive”

Being an autistic woman, I have made many wrong choices in life, mostly out of a naive ambiguity. None more challenging than where I now live. In the past I have built a house and sold it. Owned a 4 floor Georgian Mansion and lost it. And now I reside in a council maisonette. It’sContinue reading “A Place to Live”

Religion hasn’t worked for me. I was brought up a Roman Catholic in war torn Northern Ireland. I’m not talking politics here but the practice of organised worship of God. Every Sunday we went to Mass. My Mother once told me that a priest could never sin, no matter what he did. My heart couldContinue reading “Enter the Flow”

Woke up feeling stuck. My mind was literally ‘sore’. The sun was shining yet it was cold. I opened the windows in the house thinking maybe the fresh air would clear my head. Didn’t work. I ate rubbish food that only resulted in me feeling heavy. So I took out my acrylics and began toContinue reading “Created in Quarantine”

I usually avoid groups of people.It’s exhausting trying to figure people out. Constantly wondering:“what did s/he mean by saying that?”“What is the proper response to that?”“Does that mean s/he likes me?”You can see my dilemma. Yet when Lockdown was announced it felt like an infringement against my basic human rights. All of a sudden IContinue reading “Separation”

End of the worldI don’t think so. 🤔January started bleak with the bombing in Iraq. The Amazon had been on fire for weeks. Then Australia was on fire, with pictures on tv of animals burning alive. No more talking of the Amazon. Currently in April, it’s Covid19 and isolation and all the conspiracy theories aroundContinue reading “End of Everything”

Wired differently.Disabled thinkingLeads to a dysfunctional life.So they say.Alien brain full of colours and sounds.5D living in a 3D world.Energies jump out at you.You look and look trying to find some semblance of humanity.They catch you staring.You are hyper empathic so it hurts to be present to their noises,their dullness.Always cracked, a bit weird.That crackContinue reading “Alien Brain”

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